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Received news at lunch time today that my brother has died from a combination of a serious upper respiratory illness and an old prescription drug he took to try and ease his symptoms.  I could only stand there in my foyer clutching my cell phone as my baby sister sobbed in my ear with the horrifying news.  She was called from work and was driving and crying (a dangerous combination) as she rushed to the hospital where my mother waited.  Unfortunately, my brother, who had been arriving by ambulance from home had died on the way so never left the area where he and my mom lived.  My sister was going to have to tell my mother the terrible news. I ache for both of them.

It hurts not to be there for both of them but I'm several states away as is our middle sister.  It was left to me to contact the rest of my ever-shrinking family.  Death has been very busy these last few years. 

At this moment, I feel disconnected and flat, as well as wondering why I don't feel more grief.  I wasn't as close to my brother as we were when we were younger.  And it didn't help that lately he was acting more and more odd.  An accident on his motorcycle in his youth had left him with issues with his behavior in public.  At times he was as old, friendly and warm, while other times he was nasty and sarcastic.  It made it hard for my mother to live with him these last few months.  However, despite that, I find myself numb and still reeling in shock that he's truly gone.  What makes it worse is the fact I hadn't seen him in person since 2006, though I did speak with him a few weeks ago.  Thankfully, it had been a very amiable conversation.  How was I to know it would be the last time? 

All I can do right this moment is wait for my sister to contact me and let me know what I and my other sister can do and whether we must find a way to go to their sides.  Neither of us have much funds so this will be very difficult.  It is going to be a very long night.

UPDATE:  Got more information on my brother.  He had a clot in his lungs which was why he was on medication but when he got the upper respiratory, he failed to go into the doctor immediately.  His condition deteriorated after three days.  He had stopped breathing once and my mother brought him back but he still died on way to hospital.  All because he wouldn't seek medical help at the beginning when it could have done the most good.  Please ... all you out there ... don't ignore medical problems until they become too late.  Listen to your body and seek help immediately when poor breathing, heart pain, pain that doesn't go away within 24 hrs, and other persistent issues occur.  Don't let what happened to my brother happen to you or your loved ones.

My mom is just realizing how lonely her life will be when she said to me this morning ... "he will never be walking through that door again".  That tore me up and started us both crying. The sorrow is almost more than I can bear right now.   As for my mother,  I hope to convince her to move in with me though it means moving yet again for her.  I know she'll be much happier knowing she's surrounded by those that love her and will take care of her while allowing her the freedom to do what she likes best ... painting and working in her garden.
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61 yrs old, a writer of fan fiction since 2006, amateur photographer and pencil artist, mother of three adult children, married 42 yrs, retired USAF, retired owner/operator of cat grooming parlor, working on becoming a professional writer as my third career and Lover of Cats. You can find all my work at the Wonderful World of Make Believe (WWOMB) and fan

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